There is this picture of me, I had just been dumped and instead of wallowing in my own self pity, I remember that I felt like I had something to prove. That relationship had been such a big part of my life that I wanted to prove to both myself and those around me that I could survive with him no longer being in my life. Despite how upset I was and how much I thought I loved him, I remember wanting to feel confident with myself.
So, my ex- best friend and I decided that we would dress up and go to the movies for nobody but ourselves so we both dressed up and I remember not knowing what I was gonna wear but wanting to look pretty so when I opened my closet, I took out the very dress that I wore in this picture.
That day proved to me that I could live without my ex- boyfriend, that I was still pretty even though I had “let myself go.” There was so much that I had to prove to others but more importantly, it was something that I had to prove to myself.
We didn’t go anywhere special besides to the movie theater so we could see Suicide Squad and to Walmart so her family could buy some groceries but that day had been one of the best days of my life. I felt beautiful and confident, I genuinely thought I looked sexy at the time.
I look back on that day and I can’t remember that girl, she was stuck in a moment directly after something dreadful and not only was she happy but she was happy and confident in herself. She knew she looked beautiful and she wasn’t worried about her weight or anything else about her.
I applaud the girl that I once was because I know that in many ways, I have changed and that I will never be the same girl that I once was but I also know that it’s not necessarily a bad thing and I hope that one day, I can grow to be the same confident girl who wanted to prove something after a break up.
Even though the dress was tight and short, something that I typically would never think to wear, I still love this picture. Not because I actually was genuinely gorgeous or anything but because I remember that day and how confident that I felt and I see this picture as a symbol of confidence.
Because of this, I wanted to share it with you because I know that there are a lot of people who struggle with this and I just wanted to tell you that you are beautiful and that you’ll figure out how to be confident and yes, you will have days of being confident and days of feeling absolutely terrible but those days of being “terrible” is not every day and is not true because you are beautiful.