A year ago feels like a lifetime ago if you want me to be honest, I was in a serious depression and I was losing my mind, it felt like. I didn’t want to do anything besides write which in some ways was a good thing, I had published my second novel last October and it’s officially been a year since I’ve written anything. I wrote my first novel in June of 2016 and my second novel in October of 2017.
But now it’s October of 2017 and the most I’ve done is work on this blog and even then, I’ve done pretty shitty work with that.
I was talking about the kind of relationship I wanted, and I found it. Check off all of the boxes or put all of those personality traits and actions that I desired and put into one man and I have found him. He is my best friend and the love of my life and I am so thankful for him.
I am a graduated high school student and going to the University of my dreams. The same school that I visited in Freshman year and have dreamed about going since.
Life is better honestly, but in some ways. I don’t feel better about myself. I feel lost and unproductive and just… not living the life I want to live and I want to make a change but I don’t know where that change needs to happen.
Maybe doing this challenge will help…
See you tomorrow.